But it seems impossible not to become aggravated with the situation because it is supposed to be such a "natural" thing. Nothing about this has been "natural" by any means. I have exhausted myself pumping for 74 days now. And it drives me crazy when everyone quizzes me on how much I produce. First of all, I do not know what is normal or adequate. And second of all, it is never consistent. Then, people insist on asking, "Have you gotten that "let down" feeling??" No- I haven't. I am feeding a machine, not a baby and my body is not responding as nature intended! And then I just end up feeling like I am inadequate at this whole thing or that I am missing out on something or I worry that my body will not be able to keep up this pace and I am going to stop producing all together and then we would have to take a chance with starting Charlie on formula instead and hope that his stomach will handle it... oy... Sorry for the rant, but I am frustrated... I am going to work with the lactation consultant today, so hopefully I will have a more positive update tonight!
Please continue to pray for Baby Kaden - he is continuing to make progress slowly, but surely! And please say a little prayer for Baby J, the third Crouse CDH baby that was born a few weeks ago. I overheard his mom saying yesterday that he has gotten an infection somehow. I have been told by the nurses that the little NICU boys are much slower than their girl counterparts, and from what I have seen, that seems to hold true (as Baby K was told she may be going home in a couple of weeks!) :-)